MG frowns again, shifting in his seat. There is something that still
bothers him. Something... Something important but just out of reach.
"How do I know if I am learning?"
He tightens his hold around the oil can again, hiding the way his fingers
shake. "Captain said he didn't want to see me until I could explain why.
I... I don't know why. I don't know--"
He almost wishes he were hated. At least that was something he understood
how to handle.
"I--"
Oh.
He was afraid.
He was afraid of losing his ani-- his captain.
"Commander... I..." He furrows his brows and looks down. "Captain calls me
Gold Foot. I know that name but it is not my name. I want... I want to
remember. I want to know why Mach Windy and Captain know me as something
else. I want to know why a non-combatant is made into a soldier. I..."
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Date: 2023-12-06 02:12 pm (UTC)MG frowns again, shifting in his seat. There is something that still bothers him. Something... Something important but just out of reach.
"How do I know if I am learning?"
He tightens his hold around the oil can again, hiding the way his fingers shake. "Captain said he didn't want to see me until I could explain why. I... I don't know why. I don't know--"
He almost wishes he were hated. At least that was something he understood how to handle.
"I--"
Oh.
He was afraid.
He was afraid of losing his ani-- his captain.
"Commander... I..." He furrows his brows and looks down. "Captain calls me Gold Foot. I know that name but it is not my name. I want... I want to remember. I want to know why Mach Windy and Captain know me as something else. I want to know why a non-combatant is made into a soldier. I..."
He didn't want to be a soldier anymore.
He didn't know how to be anything else.
"I want to know who Gold Foot is."