I-I thought it was cool. Freeing, even. For once I didn't have to feel like... Well, to feel, the way things do when I'm...this. Sometimes emotions feel like they're hardwired to other processes- and it just has this domino-effect on things inside, like... It feels like things just twist and knot up and it's uncomfortable sometimes, and a lot of the time it's really hard to identify. Sometimes I just wish I didn't have to deal with them.
...a lot of the time, really.
And it's not like I couldn't feel things when I was a giant robot but...it was like... I don't know, different. The gut-feelings weren't there. Maybe because you don't have those particular organs that somehow just get affected when you react to something in some way or another. It was easier to detach myself from things. I didn't feel bad about stuff. But...I didn't realize when I was possibly hurting other people.
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[He rests his chin on his knees.]
I-I thought it was cool. Freeing, even. For once I didn't have to feel like... Well, to feel, the way things do when I'm...this. Sometimes emotions feel like they're hardwired to other processes- and it just has this domino-effect on things inside, like... It feels like things just twist and knot up and it's uncomfortable sometimes, and a lot of the time it's really hard to identify. Sometimes I just wish I didn't have to deal with them.
...a lot of the time, really.
And it's not like I couldn't feel things when I was a giant robot but...it was like... I don't know, different. The gut-feelings weren't there. Maybe because you don't have those particular organs that somehow just get affected when you react to something in some way or another. It was easier to detach myself from things. I didn't feel bad about stuff. But...I didn't realize when I was possibly hurting other people.