[Donnie sinks down onto the table like a puppet whose strings have been cut.
He doesn't want to hear those things. Especially not after seeing his own brothers being controlled by someone else. The reminder makes him feel sick, and he loosens his arms enough to draw his legs in close, a haunted expression on his face.
Whatever he'd thought they might talk about, this isn't at all what he'd expected.]
But what if I can't?!
[He feels that annoyingly familiar prickle in his eyes, which only makes him tense up even tighter.]
It seems like all I've been getting are lucky breaks, and if it weren't for some weird intervention or another, things would've gone so much different! Anemone would have been dead! My brothers would've been taken by a blood mage if they weren't just made to kill each other or me instead!
[His sight blurs as he buries his face against his knees.]
I saved Anemone with Solus's gauntlets but she's still linked to Megatronus somehow.
My brother's got some weird lantern attached to him and I think it's my fault he's stuck with it.
And Mikey-
Nothing should ever happen to Mikey but she...she did something and I don't know how bad it is...
[ there it is. It pains Rung to see his face so full of rage and grief]
Then at least you tried. At least you did everything you could to save them. At least you live knowing you did what you thought was right.
[ The fire burns on his plating, the memory of the crash. No one survives but him. He did everything he could for them and even if the crash was not his or anyone's fault... ]
Luck can be that string of hope, but its what you do with that string that matters. You can't predict everything. You can't know all the outcomes. The death to pile or the lives saved.
Resilience is a wonderful trait. but it is also a the knife as a hilt. Luck runs out, people betray your best intentions.
[ Froid vanished... but how long will secrets stay buried... its why he told Ratchet anything at all]
There may be a day you have to choose between something you should never have to choose between.
I can't stop your heroism, I can't stop all the pain. I can't erase the damage or cure your trauma with a snap of a finger.
But what I can do is warn you. I can only stop the hurt from being worse.
I don't want to be the bad guy. I'm simply the mech who's watched countless others destroy themselves for the "greater good". Signed off on it even, even if I shouldn't of.
I ... [ That unwavered voice sombers and quiets slowly. ]
I'm simply... sorry you ever had to suffer this at all.
[Is it worth it? It hurts so much, even when things pan out fine. But fine doesn't mean untouched.
His limbs hurt for how tightly he's squeezing himself, as compact a ball as he can manage, his head still bent over as he tries but fails to hold back tears. He hates crying. He hates that it seems like it's just a general thing that happens now. Some emotionally unavailable bad boy he is, but then that's just an image he'd striven to uphold.
He listens numbly to Rung as the Cybertronian continues to speak, even if part of him doesn't want to hear it.
Donnie's not even sure if he's mad at him. Inside, he knows he means well, but...it's a lot to hear, and it doesn't help, coming from someone who's still mostly a stranger. Or does it? He...doesn't know.
Absently he wonders what kind of a Witch he would have made...
Silence falls heavily into the space that Rung leaves once he seems, for the moment, finished with his words.
Donnie remains where he sits, and for all the difference he feels, he could have been sitting alone in the void of space.]
[ Rung lets the silence fill with crying, grabbing a small tissue box still to big for the child. Pulling out a tissue and sets it next to him, putting his hand behind, gently touching his back. ]
...
[ He will not even be a stranger to everyone he loves or helps. Its not even just his profession. Someday, he knows... he will be gone... and his memory with it.
[The turtle somehow manages to stiffen even more at the slightest sense of that little weight on his battle shell. He lifts his head just enough to peer over his arms, clawed fingers gingerly reaching out to snag the sheet of tissue, scrubbing with it at his eyes as he sniffles.
What's he supposed to do? Just live in a box? Not trust anyone? Maybe things were easier when they lived apart from the rest of the world, dipping their toes in whenever they felt like it, slipping into but never actually part of things. Operating from the shadows. True, their close bonds were few, but there's nothing Donnie thinks can ever come between them. It seems like being here, things have been doing their best to try, and he hates it.]
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Date: 2024-11-30 11:40 pm (UTC)He doesn't want to hear those things. Especially not after seeing his own brothers being controlled by someone else. The reminder makes him feel sick, and he loosens his arms enough to draw his legs in close, a haunted expression on his face.
Whatever he'd thought they might talk about, this isn't at all what he'd expected.]
But what if I can't?!
[He feels that annoyingly familiar prickle in his eyes, which only makes him tense up even tighter.]
It seems like all I've been getting are lucky breaks, and if it weren't for some weird intervention or another, things would've gone so much different! Anemone would have been dead! My brothers would've been taken by a blood mage if they weren't just made to kill each other or me instead!
[His sight blurs as he buries his face against his knees.]
I saved Anemone with Solus's gauntlets but she's still linked to Megatronus somehow.
My brother's got some weird lantern attached to him and I think it's my fault he's stuck with it.
And Mikey-
Nothing should ever happen to Mikey but she...she did something and I don't know how bad it is...
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Date: 2024-11-30 11:59 pm (UTC)Then at least you tried. At least you did everything you could to save them. At least you live knowing you did what you thought was right.
[ The fire burns on his plating, the memory of the crash. No one survives but him. He did everything he could for them and even if the crash was not his or anyone's fault... ]
Luck can be that string of hope, but its what you do with that string that matters. You can't predict everything. You can't know all the outcomes. The death to pile or the lives saved.
Resilience is a wonderful trait. but it is also a the knife as a hilt. Luck runs out, people betray your best intentions.
[ Froid vanished... but how long will secrets stay buried... its why he told Ratchet anything at all]
There may be a day you have to choose between something you should never have to choose between.
I can't stop your heroism, I can't stop all the pain. I can't erase the damage or cure your trauma with a snap of a finger.
But what I can do is warn you. I can only stop the hurt from being worse.
I don't want to be the bad guy. I'm simply the mech who's watched countless others destroy themselves for the "greater good". Signed off on it even, even if I shouldn't of.
I ... [ That unwavered voice sombers and quiets slowly. ]
I'm simply... sorry you ever had to suffer this at all.
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Date: 2024-12-01 04:43 am (UTC)His limbs hurt for how tightly he's squeezing himself, as compact a ball as he can manage, his head still bent over as he tries but fails to hold back tears. He hates crying. He hates that it seems like it's just a general thing that happens now. Some emotionally unavailable bad boy he is, but then that's just an image he'd striven to uphold.
He listens numbly to Rung as the Cybertronian continues to speak, even if part of him doesn't want to hear it.
Donnie's not even sure if he's mad at him. Inside, he knows he means well, but...it's a lot to hear, and it doesn't help, coming from someone who's still mostly a stranger. Or does it? He...doesn't know.
Absently he wonders what kind of a Witch he would have made...
Silence falls heavily into the space that Rung leaves once he seems, for the moment, finished with his words.
Donnie remains where he sits, and for all the difference he feels, he could have been sitting alone in the void of space.]
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Date: 2024-12-01 12:17 pm (UTC)...
[ He will not even be a stranger to everyone he loves or helps. Its not even just his profession. Someday, he knows... he will be gone... and his memory with it.
So he has to do what he can while he can. ]
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Date: 2024-12-01 09:31 pm (UTC)What's he supposed to do? Just live in a box? Not trust anyone? Maybe things were easier when they lived apart from the rest of the world, dipping their toes in whenever they felt like it, slipping into but never actually part of things. Operating from the shadows. True, their close bonds were few, but there's nothing Donnie thinks can ever come between them. It seems like being here, things have been doing their best to try, and he hates it.]